Sweet Addiction

You are far more addicting than any candy at candy shops.
Addicting than any boy band who’d almost make people drool;
Addicting than any T.V. shows I’ve had watched;
Addicting than any of my collections;
Addicting than any subject in school;
Addicting than any sport I want to learn;
Addicting than coffee, ah, yes.

I am addicted to you.
My sweet addiction.
The one and only you.
You’re my sweet drug.
The one I really wanna hug.

this is so effin' weird

I don’t know why am posting this. I just wanna let this out. okay…Well, I’ve been having this weird feeling for almost five months and I so wanna get over it and just move on. I’ve been contemplating this thing for a gazillion times. This thing has been drivin’ me nuts and it’s making me oh so dumb. I actually dunno how I feel, ha, this is by far the weirdest thing I’ve ever been into. the feeling just gets weirder each day. I don’t even know how and why I started liking you (back). (What did I ever see in you?). It was so abruptly unexpected. I’ve been desperately trying to fight off the feeling but it’s just so strong I can’t let go. I’ve read tons of articles and listened to songs just to resist something inside of me. Seeing you just makes me feel mixed up, gawky, and uhm, okay…happy. I don’t know if it’s just me but you just stare at me so differently that it makes me shrink and it gives me off the weirdest feeling on earth. I’ve been concealing this for way too long and I wish I could tell you. I so wanna talk to you but I dunno how and what to say. I tried ignoring and avoiding you but it’s just so strong it’s unavoidable. Your absence just makes my day so lamely boring and dull and your presence makes me feel more vibrantly alive (more than ever). I can’t go a day without thinkin’ of you. I keep on tellin’ myself that this thing would go and vanish (in time) but how am I supposed to do that if a part of me wants to be with you.and no matter how hard I try to get you off of my head I just couldn’t. I wanted to have a change of heart but coercing this thing to go away is so damn stupid. I don’t wanna leave without even knowing how you feel. I wanna know if the feeling is still mutual ‘coz I can feel that you’re trying to avoid me. I wanna sit right next to you and seize that moment and talk to you, I dunno if that’s even possible coz am tongue tied when you're next to me. Okay, I dunno if I am just assuming things but can you at least let me know. I have to know. I’ve got to. If not now then when. Am not rushing things coz I can see how it’s falling to place. But I don’t wanna be so complacent waiting for things to happen and just wake up one day and realize that it's too late. I do hope this is worth the wait:-/. Arrgh---s.j.