getting random

Am getting ready for my summer job interview this Saturday. Whoa, it’s my first and I have no clue how am going to act. Would I have to be the serious sarah or the crazy one or just plain professional. I just really hope that I’d be hired. School’s still up and am feelin’ the pressure way harder than I thought it’d affect me. Am getting cranky. Fuck, am confused and exhausted. Got loads of projects to pass and they’ll be due 2 weeks from now. Ugh, fuck I don’t know what to do. Feel like killin’ myself just to end this suffering. Gosh am so stupid to think of that. (Just hate having vertigo.) I know that I suck, I just can’t be any tougher and you know optimistic. Am so, I don’t know clueless. I don’t know which one to prioritize and I eventually end up doin nothing. Am getting so random right now. Just typing everything that pops out of my head. Why’d do I have to try passing a subject when I know I’ll just disappoint myself big time. Ugh, school suck sometimes. I just wanna sleep for a long period of time and woke in the morning worrying nothing. And just lay in the couch for the whole day but that’s not going to happen any longer because am getting a job. Oh yeah, a job! Am so excited. My sibs are even teasing me that I’ll be fired in no time because am so demanding and am so lazy. Who’s lazy? I do all my home works, an hour before I go to school (that’s why am late, sorry)...LOL Well you know what that’s not going to happen because am determined, focused and serious now (fingers cross).haha I know that my sibs are going to laugh at me when they hear me sayin this. Can’t I be the serious ate to you guys? Am serious when am not laughin’…haha I just feel so cozy when am with my family. I love them. Even though my brother annoys me that I want to punch him so he’d shut up. How my second sister dominates over me (okay, you’re stronger but am wiser. Bleeeh). I just love how my nephew Justin brings our family closer and tighter.